I don't know how to write about God by Lionnfart, literature
Literature
I don't know how to write about God
I spent twenty minutes
arranging the wine, bread, and tablecloth,
and another hour in the garden
picking flowers, all for Jesus.
I felt the room breathing with its
own life before I ever even sat
down on the couch.
Last year I spilled the wine,
this time the bread falls off the plate,
cracking on the floor, Christ's broken body -
I'm so imperfect, small, a wailing babe.
I want to promise I'll be good
for the rest of my life, but that is impractical.
You and I know better.
You know there's too much
settled dust on this body,
just as there was
on the fine porcelain dishes
mother pulled from the china cabinet.
My footprints are muddy,
I had a dream a mountain
told me what a woman was,
and I stood at her base
while she whispered of love.
She pointed up at the sun.
"This does not think it is much.
See, you have that in common...
you must accept you are enough.
Though frequently reserved,
you should still remember
that love freely given
is love that is treasured -
is love that returns."
The valley winds shook my ribs.
I was aware of empty,
how to criticize its depth,
when her gentle voice steeled:
"Do not criticize what manages growth
in the soil of a field
you've neglected to sow.
Life is about experience
and you, in your mind's view,
are what you produce."
The dream b
i want to live on pluto
and inherit from him the world’s uncertainty:
live life in a year’s meager fraction,
make snow cones that never melt,
become nearly weightless
and one-third ice.
gracelessly i glide on patches of ice,
hopskotching the moons of pluto
and drifting into nothing, weightless,
contemplating distant blues with such uncertainty
my blood refuses to melt;
my fingers twitch in fractions.
my bones, too, fraction
and my eyelashes get tipped with ice;
numb lips whisper “melt,”
but he refuses: pluto,
with no uncertainty,
makes my head weightless.
my whole life i’ve wanted to be weightless,
to stop be
orange is such an ugly color by blanketings, literature
Literature
orange is such an ugly color
there’s something to be said for himalayan salt lamps;
they won’t inject your bedroom’s oxygen with positive ions
but they’ll make your comforter seem like a seance’s start:
a seance where the ghost
is a four year old who hates surprises
sobbing amidst smiles
and slices of birthday cake
makes sense.
feelin’ blue?
wait for a colder sun to rise
by flicking on your own miniature sunset;
bob ross
would call the subsequent acrylic
apparitions on your face a beautiful brown but
he hasn’t seen that same hue
in the bottle of bottom-shelf bourbon
(the one your roommate picked up for you yesterda
if you add limeade it's technically a whiskey sour by blanketings, literature
Literature
if you add limeade it's technically a whiskey sour
i lied about the exorcism--
that neon ghost
still haunts my phone
and though all of us are silent
you sing my tinnitus till the storms get back.
you don't know it's been raining all week
because i never told you;
i'm so scared of spirits and spiders
and weathering small-talk--
your sun and my curtain-clouded bedroom.
in a sunpatch on your floor,
i dreamt of leaping off the grid
and landing back in lake hylia a hero;
now i only dream of daytime drinks,
a summer solitude as dull as the ends of my hair
'cause i can't even throw back my dad's ninety proof
without the sun in my eyes
so the truth is
between zelda and zookeeping
i've been seanc
how many summers did you spend
couched in west virginia?
street smitten, sore legged
pacing the fence of adolescent mess
in mountain’s maw, raining angel’s ash,
the absolute heat death of july
forever finding homes
in someone’s sister’s basement,
curled in a messy bedroom,
growing pains in your shins
getting taller couldn’t relieve
against grainy adult swim shock toons
estrogenic mall musk and slurpee vomit
mom going on and on
about some lie you told, or didn’t
as if you culled the children to the cellar
and beat them before you were born,
as if you were a songless canary
in a coal mine collapsing
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